Illness, no work and so its well and truly grinding today

Hello All,

Well after a few years of living comfortably in a lifestyle where I managed to have a few luxuries – by luxuries I mean the off treat of a box of maltesers, the odd looksie in a charity shop without having to worry too much about the odd few quid I was spending in my purse – it looks like the purse strings are about to be tightened, super-glued and welded shut for a while

I have been suffering from labyrinthitis for the last 9 weeks….its one on the nastiest bugs I have ever experienced…. dizziness, nausea, sickness, major increased anxiety, tinnitis, ear pain, deafness, sore throat, lost 2 stone in weight through lack of appetite, agoraphobia, and an intolerance of strip lighting, computer screens and crowds which all sent me spinning in a minutes notice. I couldn’t walk my son to school at the beginning of it and now I can actually wait in the yard to collect him and put my daughter in and our of nursery without feeling bad. Only downside is that any virus / cold that I contract – it can reoccur – what fun!

So since then my work basically said they had hired more staff and given them my shifts, this means I will be given new shifts as they gave them my contract so I will be put onto whatever they need covering which is impossible with a 9 year old, a 3 year old and a partner who works from 8 – 5.30 and works away occassionally. Therefore I either accept the new shifts I am given or can hand in my notice. just how you expect to be treated after 8 years old very rarely being off ill. I was bringing in £260 (after my loan was taken out)

I tried to claim employment allowance support or whatever its called – but they keep rewriting asking for more sick notes so I feel like Im flogging a dead horse if Im honest.

Tax Credits changed my working status to unemployed since Sugust when I got taken ill – so my tax credits went up from £202 to £375 which was a bit of good news.

We are in a battle with HSBC over reclaiming bank charges, and have just written to the financial ombudsman for the complaint for after getting the letter a few days ago from the bank saying they wont pay despite us having good reasons and suitable ‘financial hardship’ grounds……fingers crossed on that one

 

We had to take out a ‘loan’ from a well known site ( W***a ) as I couldn’t afford to buy food and the cupboards were empty and by empty I don’t mean a load of I cant be bothered to cook that and there’s no easy meals empty, I mean a bag of pasta, flour, golden syrup, tin of sweetcorn, smash and rice empty, and very little in the freezer to the point I can see most the bottom……this has never happened before. I took out £200 with the idea of paying £112 council tax and £80 shopping with a few pennies left……..didn’t turn out like that – I spent £48 on a dentist fee, £87 on shopping and had to give Owen £50 for his car petrol for the week and the last £15 – Ben needed £6 for a school trip, Holly needs £1 snack money for the week in school so I have literally about £5 left.

I have asked for a council tax/housing benefit form, hoping to get that filled in and sent back ASAP

My partner Owen like I said works and brings in £260 a week after tax etc.

So between us we get (with benefits at present) £1545 every 4 weeks.

Our outgoings of 
Rent  ~ 370.00
Water ~ 66.39 
Council Tax ~ 112.00 
TV ~ 20.40
NTL ~ 90.00
Gas ~ 49.00 
Electric ~ 40.00
Loan (Wo**a) ~ 234.00
Loan 2 ~ 40.00 
Dentist ~ 16.68 
Bank ~ 10.00 (28th each month)
Holly Nursery ~ 4.00
Ben – Cubs ~ 8.00
Owen Petrol ~ 160.00
Owen Loan  ~ 70.00
Food ~ 200.00 
Josh Maintenance ~ 100.00

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£1590.47

so we are over…..and thanks to Owen’s bank taking charges when they shouldn’t have , it meant our car didn’t get taxed last year, subsequently got clamped, fined and had to pay nearly £400 so I had to take out a loan with a credit union to the tune of £850 to get our car un-clamped, mended and taxed which I’m paying off at £40 a month from my wages – which I probably wont have much longer. Also because the tax wasn’t paid he has been given a court order which he is pleading guilty too obviously so he will end up with a fine/charges of some sort for that  :(:(

I have no savings. I am trying my best to take up Avon but I am in a relatively poor area with lots of working class families but it is bringing me in about £20-£30 a time but it is better than my shop work job as I don’t have crowds, strip lighting or computer screens to trigger dizzy spells and can do it at my leisure to a degree

I asked my dad his opinion (my dad is a round, hard working , ex RAF man) and he said if my tax credits have increased by £170 – I would literally be £90 short of my wages that I could use. So he said if I can save 22.50 a week – then that would cover the £90 a month

Besides Avon I am crafting with items to hopefully sell at a craft fayre coming up in November, I cook from scratch. I will list kitchen items soon but bare in mind I literally did my shopping yesterday so have to make this stretch until the 22nd.

Also in the £200 food spend – this includes 2 dogs (JRT and a mongrel of the same size – they eat what they are given), 2 terrapins, and I am currently looking after my neighbours 3 ferrets as she has had a few personal issues and cant care for them but will be having them back when she is fit. She has provided food/bedding etc so these do not need any of that expense. Oh and 3 gold fish.

I have been through old DVDs and plan to put them onto a various site to see if I can cash them in as they are no longer needed, I also have books that I’m sure I’ve seen a site to sell them on which I might try.

I am hopefully picking up a sewing machine on free-cycle today once Owen finishes work (the owner took it apart as it was dodgy and catching, and then reassembled it wrong) so I’m hoping to try and fix it so I can make a few crafts and Christmas presents for family.

I am looking for tips, advice and will keep this up to date with what I’m going to be doing over the next few weeks to try and get us back on track.

My mission for today is to list what I have in my fridge/freezer/cupboards and go from there.

*** On a side note I had a message from Swalec that we are £136 in credit with our Gas bill, and I owe £27 on the electric but Im thinking rather than claim it back that it will be worth keeping myself in credit for the upcoming winter months ***

Hope your all well and any input most gratefully appreciated.

Sammy

x x x x x

Having issues........

Hi All

I just wanted to update yo uall and let you know that I have been having health issues since my brother passed away in April.

I have changed my other blog to help me try and find some sanity again with it and maybe a bit of therapy

I hope youll come over there and see me and help with the healing/coping process

thanks all

Sam
x

A Year To Refind Me

Time to make a change.....

Hi All

I realise I have been somewhat absent since the passing of my brother. Its been a very long few hard months but I think acceptance takes time and whilst I realise that he is no longer here, I know he is forever here with me and now we have his plaque and a date for scattering his ashes I feel better, knowing I have a private place to share my thoughts and fears with him, whether he listens will be another thing but at least to me it will make a difference.

Right not much has changed the last month or so other than I have piled on weight and its made my mood more miserable and depressed so I am making a point of this being the first thing I change about myself.

My other brother is a fitness fan so has sent me a copy of P90x which quite frankly I tried the ab ripper for the first time today at about 2pm and I can still feel my muscles aching from the workout and it is now 9.34......especially in the obliques area (which is the muscle down the sides of your stomach) my brother told me the first time he tried it he had problems walking properly as the muscles in his groin ached and after I attempted the first workout my legs felt like jelly so I will definitely stick with this because it was hard and in the 15 minutes I did boy did I sweat so Ill make sure to update you with how that goes and my starting weight for those who care was 12st 4lbs.....

Anyway so yeah I have that to do daily now, also I have decided to take up medication as a way to clear my head and have been listening to a few calming folk songs - I particularly like Sleep Song by Secret Garden..... but I am looking for more songs to add to my list that I can just sit and enjoy.

I have also created my own little nook. I came to realise that as much as I love my kids, they are my world, occasionally I need five minutes to myself or away from Owen to just enjoy my things.....so Owen's mum was getting rid of an old arm chair last week which we rehomed and put into our bedroom, it now sits in the corner, with a view ot the window into the street, the sunshine shines in and the terrapins swim quietly in the tank watching you, its calm and peaceful, I have a lamp, a place for my tea and a comfy chair......bliss. Just need to get around it cleared more so I have my own tranquil little place to relax and then find some things to do and enjoy. Lord knows I have plenty of things to read and crafts I want to do.

Apart from that not much else has happened, oh yeah my sister is pregnant again, she doesnt intend to keep it. I was sent home from work ill with some horrid bug which wasnt nice and had to borrow £500 off my dad to get my car unclamped and fixed and re-MOT'd

Im now waiting on a credit union loan to see if I can pay my father back so Ive emailed them tonight so hoping to hear from them tomorrow. x

x x x x x

reading part two............

My reading was finished off today

She talked about my future a bit but it is very long so I will crop and paste the conversation here instead. 

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Conversation started Thursday

12:06

Sam :

hi Simone x

12:10

Simone:

Hi SAM ,I'm going to grab my cards and note pad OK

12:10

Sam :

OK Hun, that's fine x

12:16

Simone:

hi huni

:0)

12:16

Sam :

hello 

12:16

Simone

OK can u send me a few recent photos in box here please

12:17

Sam :

do they have to be specifically of me?

12:18

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im reading you so yes please huni

12:20

Sam :

(pictures of me)

12:21

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

that's a nice one 

12:21

Sam :

thank you x

12:21

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

can i have a couple more please huni

(more pictures)

12:26

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

right im just linking in with your pics

12:26

Sam :

OK huni x

12:28

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

OK I'm going to explain how i work huni, I'm going to throw alot of random words etc at you and some will make sense some will not right now, then I'm going to elaborate on them

then ill introduce the cards for future details

OK

what i need you to do

is

12:28

Sam :

right OK

12:29

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

confirm what i tell you as and when Ive said it OK

but don't respond until i say OK

:0)

OK

12:29

Sam :

OK, so just write OK to say Ive understood? or it I understand it?

12:34

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

so you are a very interesting being ,this is a good thing , you are an old soul I'm sure you know this, you have been here a few times before this life, i feel you were placed in this family in this life and as most old souls feel they don't quite fit in , i feel you have always felt different ,i wouldn't want you to try and fit in with anyone huni, you are an intelligent old soul, this has given you psychic ability spiritual insight in this life which is a blessing so always trust it and use it in a good way which i know u would.

i feel there have been past issues to the point where it has affected you long term, i feel over the years you have tried to change your identity almost, its like you feel a new person when you change your look or ways, i feel you do this subconsciously, its like multiple personalities

but this way people can accept you for limited time then you have a fresh change then people forget some of that person and and its like a fresh start

12:35

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

do u understand what im saying huni?

i feel you limit friends, because people don't always get you

12:36

Sam :

yes

12:36

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

OK thank you huni

now come the random words I'm given for you

lol

salvation army / army/ air force <<< most my family is in the forces - air force and army specifically and Ive been looking to help the salvation army and food banks for the last few months

mental health issues <<< Myself, my mother and sister suffer panic attacks and I had a mental breakdown last year, my mum has also had one previously and my sister is currently seeing a mental health nurse regualrly 

widow <<< several widows in my family and in spirit

horses <<< my granddads grandfather was a coachman for a wealthy scottish family and we have a picture of him leading the coach in his photo album. Myself, sister, auntie, mother nad cousins have always ridden and my sister was  trainee Jockey and Frankie Detorri's stable hand briefly.

incest <<< I have no idea

12:38

Sam :

ok

12:38

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

sorry i know that some of the words are not nice

but i have to be honest and say what im given OK huni

one second

12:38

Sam :

yep x

12:38

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

poppy <<< my best friends dog, also they grow in my garden and rememberance sunday is very poinient in my family for my great grandfather a WW veteran

Dora or Doreen <<< my great aunt is called Doreen 

Phil <<< several Phils in my family both male and female

one second

12:40

Sam :

ok x

12:45

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok when i look at your photos u have given me to look at i feel uncomfortable with men, like i dont want to draw attention to myself ,do you understand that? give me feed back so far and then il go on :0)

12:46

Sam :

Yes, I can understand that and much of what you said before about limiting people and not fitting in. x

12:47

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

what about the last part huni

12:47

Sam :

Yes, I really dont draw attention to myself and I do feel very uncomfortable around men x spot on there

12:50

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

if i hit on something that's really important you must say cause then i can go into it abit more

we haven't got much time see cause ive got another reading at 1.30

12:51

Sam :

ok x

12:51

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

with the random stuff

did i hit on anything that's important?

12:52

Sam :

um......the mental health issues and the widow?

12:53

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i feel there has been mental health in your mums side of the family , i feel you can be vulnerable in this area too, but you have great inner strength which u don't realise yet ,as you get older you will realise this, i feel you can get real lows

and then highs

12:54

Sam :

wow. spot on. x

12:54

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

but i look at you and i always feel a loss, a feeling you don't belong

does that make sense

ok

12:54

Sam :

again, spot on. x

12:55

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i want to reassure you Sam there is NOTHING wrong with Sam, you are struggling with a very common issue for people who are spiritually aware and have old souls

i completely understand being the same

dont ever try and conform

you are you and you are very blessed

12:56

Sam :

Thats spot on aswell. I have had a few comfort issues with being spiritually aware.

Can I ask about past life's in this reading?

12:56

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

the reason you don't feel u belong is because you have lived in the past where things were so different ,for example the Victorian past life i see you in you had lost a love ,you had passion and

romance

you were desperately in love with a man

who didn't come back from either war or being away

you waited a long time for him

he never returned

so you have loved and lost

in that life

12:58

Sam :

Wow.

12:58

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

also

one sec

i need to get that connection again with your photo

13:00

Sam :

ok

13:00

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

there is another past life i see

really clear now

i see you were a scullery maid in another

you were treated badly

you were raped

im sorry i know that's not nice

but i felt i should mention

you were abused generally

and suffered a horrid life

13:01

Sam :

no, that's fine. x

13:01

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i see another

i see you were royal

hang on

13:02

Sam :

wow

13:04

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i cant get who you were but i have a clear vision of you with a soft cotton head cap on and a long dress

il google an image to see if i can get some idea

to show u

13:06

Sam :

ok. 

can I ask if a certain place bears any relevance to a past life?

13:12

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes go ahead huni?

13:14

Sam :

Ive had several dreams since I was very young about Auschwitz, the concentration camp and I can see myself walking around it......and I'm aware that I am a child - about 8-10 and possibly male.

and can you get any names from my past life's?

13:14

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

definitely male yes

i saw a male life

yes

13:15

Sam :

ok. Its always the same dream, no further.

13:16

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

so theres 4 past lives right there

so u see how difficult it is to fit in now?

if you dream it then that is definitely one of your past lives

how sad that you went through such horror

:0(

13:17

Sam :

wow ok. 

Also the soft hat makes sense - I have a fascination with having my head covered - whether its by a hood / snood/ scarf etc

yeah they don't sound the best past life's, unreturning love, raped, POW, .......

can you possibly get any names?

13:18

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes in those times you were not allowed to show your hair until you were older or special occasions

your hair was covered allot

13:18

Sam :

yes

13:18

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

if the names pop in my head then il give them for sure ok huni

13:19

Sam :

thank you. x

13:21

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

right im going to do your cards now huni

im shuffling a minute

13:21

Sam :

ok thank you

13:28

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

just want to ask u something first

13:28

Sam :

ok

13:28

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i had a future vision of you on a farm,

is this now or not?

if not now then its definitely coming up

13:29

Sam :

No, but it has always been my dream to have a farm or a small holding with a animals

13:29

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

:0)

well dream no more huni

that's what you will have i saw it clear as day

13:30

Sam :

Just need to get it now. x

13:30

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

without the cards i see 2 older boys

so im assuming they r not yours

maybe step sons

in the future

i say that

because

13:31

Sam :

there are two older boys who I class as family who aren't though.

13:31

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

they r older

one begin with J

?

josh

?

Joseph

something like that

13:32

Sam :

I have a step son called Josh, hes currently 12

13:32

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ha ha oh wow

ok

that's the one then lol

there is another boy to come then

u have a girl?

13:32

Sam :

and I have a son of my own so that would be two boys....

13:32

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

oh wow

yes true

13:32

Sam :

and yes I have a girl too

13:32

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok

im seeing the boys having a huge part in the farming

13:34

Sam :

ok

13:34

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

right bare with me

13:35

Sam :

ok

13:36

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

huni my other lady is screaming at me

im going to have to do your cards tomorrow im afraid

i promised her 1.30

is that ok?

we have been hour and half so il have to go do hers

13:37

Sam :

yes that's fine hun. Do you want me on at the same time? 12?

13:37

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i can finish yours tomorow same time

yeh

that's great thank you :0)

xx

13:37

Sam :

thats fine by me Simone - no problem at all.

13:37

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

thank you xx

13:38

Sam :

No problem, and thank you for the reading. x x x

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12:06

Sam :

hey simone x

12:08

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

hi huni :0)

im grabbing a coffee

il be right back ok xx

12:09

Sam :

 no problem x

12:24

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok huni im here

im shuffling your cards

where did i leave it after do u remember?

12:25

Sam :

you gave me a little bit about past lives, told me a bit about myself, and said you had a future vision of me on a farm and that was where we had to finish it x,

12:26

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

excellent thank you

12:26

Sam :

that's ok

12:27

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok so im going to read what first comes up in the cards and i need u to tell me if this is current stuff ok huni

12:28

Sam :

ok

12:29

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok i see there has been someone connected to you worrying about earning more money and being conscious of earning extra money and being dishonest about it, my opinion on that is if you can earn a little extra and keep it quiet do it

because we live in a time were life finances etc is very challenges

and we need every bit we can to stay afloat

as long as its not hurting anyone

and its not illegal

go for it

12:30

Sam :

that sounds like my partner. so Id say current

12:30

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

great thanku

im seeing a battle of wills and opinions between you

12:31

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

like u want to do things one way he another

12:31

Sam :

yep current. Id rather be honest and he doesn't mind letting things slide. His theory is what people don't know wont hurt them etc....

12:32

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im also seeing an adviser regarding conception <<<my aunt had a coil checked after a year, my cousin had her contraceptive injection and my father in law went to ask about my nephew needing help (see later in convo)

im also seeing a lust with same sex relationship between 2 women

12:33

Sam :

wow Ive no idea with that one........

12:34

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

there are lies regarding your childhood linked to your mum, feels like you cant get all the answers

12:34

Sam :

yes

12:35

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im seeing that you are going to be the secret keeper regarding the lovers with 2 women

u are going to feel trapped or restricted

with info thats told to you

and its as if you wished they had never tld u

12:35

Sam :

?? right, as in someone will tell me about it but I cant tell anyone?

12:36

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes

12:36

Sam :

ok

12:36

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

you are going to want to do a course but your worried it will cause problems

its classed as further education course could be part time or less

12:37

Sam :

yeah

12:37

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

in the healing bracket

whats the course?

12:37

Sam :

yes

Elderly Care and nursing but its awkward as I need to be in a position of care to take it so Id have to leave my current job

12:37

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

excellent

natural healer as i said :0)

12:38

Sam :

 yes

12:38

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes its all about timing

is there an elderly lady in hospital at the moment related to you or yr partner??

12:39

Sam :

No I have an elderly lady attached to me who has just been receiving treatment in a hospital though but she is poorly again at the minute (but shes at home at present I believe).

12:40

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok im concerned about her

i feel she is or was being mistreated or neglect

?

who is she to u?

12:41

Sam :

My grandmother

12:41

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

this lady holds secrets that need to be released before she passes

she is your last hope for the information u need about childhood

12:42

Sam :

ok

12:42

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

is she mums mum?

12:42

Sam :

yes

12:42

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ave u asked her?

12:43

Sam :

No

12:43

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

why not huni?

12:44

Sam :

I wasnt sure she'd know the answer. (Im a completely different blood group and body shape to the entire rest of my family)

12:44

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

huni i know allot more info but i just dont no if i should completely go there

12:44

Sam :

No Im happy for you too

12:45

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

before i do id like a family photo or some of your mum etc?

12:47

Sam :

Ive got old ones? but I may have a recent one. Thats a recent one of her but maybe a few months old

12:52

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

you and abby have different dads?

12:53

Sam :

Not that I know of...... but we dont look alike

12:53

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok well im feeling different dads, you are right you are nothing like each other not in looks or person

you dont look anything like your mum

you do look like your dad tho

who r u closer to?

12:54

Sam :

No not at all. We are like polar opposites myself and Abby, and Im much closer to my dad than my mother. Me and my mum are estranged from each other

12:55

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

have u ever asked your mum?

12:55

Sam :

No there was a bit of a running joke though when I was concieved that my dads best friend was staying with her at the time because my dad was away

12:56

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

thats wat is confusing me, because u dont feel connected to your mum at all

yet you do with your dad

are u te eldest?

r u older than abby?

12:57

Sam :

No not at all. Me and my mum have never been close.

Yes Im the eldest and older than Abby

12:57

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

cn i ring u for a minute?

send me mbl

12:58

Sam :

(numbers)

house phone if thats easier

13:20

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

do you no of a holiday thats booked for august / september time huni?

13:20

Sam :

one thats being booked yes

13:20

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

is it yours?

13:21

Sam :

yes

13:21

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

excellent well rest assured that holiday will happen :0)

your cousin whats her job?

13:21

Sam :

ok, thats good.

13:21

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

cause im thinking it could b her pregnancy?

13:21

Sam :

she is in telesales

13:22

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

and her partner?

13:22

Sam :

oh she was a cashier though in a supermarket

13:22

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ha ha

13:22

Sam :

until last week

13:22

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

its her pregnancy coming up

13:23

Sam :

ah nice

13:23

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

tell her from me :0)

13:23

Sam :

I will 

13:27

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

some confused mixed feeling with your sister coming up

i feel she will feel let down re the wedding plans

i feel it will be from a relatives lack of support

i feel there will be unfairness

allot of indecisiveness re mums relationsip again

thats taking over your cards for a bit there

so thats going to be a big deal

i feel you will have a new friendhsip with a male who there is still allot of judgment on

13:30

Sam :

wow, um I think I can undersgtand the lack of relative support too. possibly from my father

13:30

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

people always judge and gossip

13:31

Sam :

a new friendship or a reoccuring friendship?

13:31

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

there is medical intervention coming later in the year for one of the bys

has one of them got a medical condition?

or is this vaccinations maybe?

its something where they both have to go anyway

13:32

Sam :

Oh not that I know of......  Josh may have boosters

13:32

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

show me a photo of them uni would u

13:36

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im seeing you or your partner will have one disappointment with a job but one will come up at later stage so it will work out ok

13:37

Sam :

My partner did go for another job when he was leaving his previous one but nothing came of it, but then the job he is in now came up so he started there instead.

13:38

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

no this is later in the year huni

ok

so either u or him

13:38

Sam :

ok

13:40

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im feeling the step son more may have some confidence issues?

13:41

Sam :

yes he does.

13:41

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

and sometimes sadness regarding friends in school?

13:41

Sam :

yes.

13:42

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

i feel like he may have aspergus

cant spell it

i could be wrong

it may not be that drastic it could be an ellement of it

but something wit confidence and wanting to be left alone on times

he needs hhis own personal space

has he got his own room?

13:43

Sam :

He doesnt have aspergers but he has all the symptoms of it yes.

He doenst have his own room in our house but in his own he does

13:44

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok huni so extra sensitivity towards hhim is needed

ok

he needs his own space too thats really important

bbut they are both lovely boys

13:44

Sam :

Yes, if he needs space he is given it x

13:44

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

:0)

13:44

Sam :

Thank you. x

Randomly as I wrote about aspergers a toy fell off the top of my fire on the other side of my living room.....Im easily 3.5meters from it and theres only me and the dog sleeping next to me in here and no open windows ..........

13:45

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

theres going to be a fall out regarding a friendhsip , the fall out will come due to a jealous girlfriend

13:47

Sam :

oh ok

13:47

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

during a marriage break up later in the year there will be arguements over the money side of things

ha ha oh fab

spirit with you lol

13:48

Sam :

I know Ive gone very tingely as well. x

13:49

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

as the relationship separates with mum later in the year with her partner i feel you are becoming more drawn towards making the steps towards contact with her again

13:50

Sam :

right.....

13:50

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

im also seeing coming up end of year a young pregnancy for someone who by then

will be going into further egdcation

13:52

Sam :

hmmm.......ok.

13:52

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

who is in comp?

13:52

Sam :

my nephew

13:52

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes

how old?

13:52

Sam :

16 in july. he may be linked to that pregnancy x

and he has aspergers x

13:53

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

he is

the pregnancy linked definitely

right im going to leave your cards there huni

13:54

Sam :

thought so

13:54

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

il connect with spirit

now

13:54

Sam :

ok, thank you love x

13:57

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok im getting Gregg and Bert, im seeing a man who preeched allot

just say yes or no as to wether u can take it ok huni

13:58

Sam :

No.

13:58

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok

im going to stay with this man

see if you recognise some of it

13:58

Sam :

ok

13:59

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

ok he has a fishing hat on

he liked birds to

he wore glasses

he had something wrong with his stomache

13:59

Sam :

im thinking

13:59

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

swelling in the stomache

he mentions stacey

14:00

Sam :

possibly

14:01

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

showing me someone dissecting a frog lol random but true lol

14:01

Sam :

ok

14:01

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

mentions how he always would be in his rain proof coat

i feell he was outdoors more than in

who is he huni?

uncle

?

or grandfather

14:03

Sam :

I still have both my grandfathers but I have an uncle

14:03

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

in spirit?

uncle in spirit yes

14:04

Sam :

I dont know Ive not seen him in years.

14:04

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

gonna have to rush you huni cause ive got someone else waiting ok

ok

does he fit that description?

14:05

Sam :

no, not with that name

14:05

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

no the description?

14:06

Sam :

No

14:06

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

he shows me a women kissing a baby on the mouth ,i feel the baby died

the lady with him in spirit LOVED hats

and big flowers

on the hats

also shows me her spoilt pooch

im also shown an artificial limb

Derick and Al

the names will be linked to him

14:08

Sam :

wow I have an uncle Alb

14:09

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

right

ok

is this the one u havnt seen for years?

14:09

Sam :

I havent seen ALBERT (ALB) for years but hes in spirit

14:10

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

yes ok

dont u remember what he was like huni?

14:10

Sam :

yes, he had glasses.....

14:10

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

this is wo i have here :0)

he mentions someone always leaving shoe laces untied

or they dont tie them properly

and he wants them to be careful of a fall

14:11

Sam :

yeah abby. she would tuck her laces in but not tie them

14:11

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

he mentions someone is good at body art?

henna or tattooing

face painting

its something with body art?

14:12

Sam :

abby

14:12

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

oh really

lol

14:12

Sam :

her and alb were close

14:12

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

aw

he says you sould have gone to a private school, he feels your very clever

he says "dont no where she gets it from" lol

mutley the dog

14:13

Sam :

he did haha

14:14

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

he is putting a peg on his nose

who has diobetes?

14:15

Sam :

my grandmother has age on set but my friends dad does, his son is in spirit

14:15

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

?

always consious of the time

he was?

14:16

Sam :

YES very much so

14:16

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

scottish link?

is that with him?

is he refering to you with lists?

like OCD

lol

14:18

Sam :

Weird. My grandfather is scottish (with my grandmother who has diabetes) but the male in spirit (the son) in his items when he passed there was a scottish knife and hsi family

coudlnt work out why

YES Im forever making lists

14:18

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

bless him

ha ha and me re the lists

max

do u remember a cow or bull who was caught in the barb wire fense?

14:20

Sam :

No.......I know a few Max's though

14:20

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

and blindfolding a man in a cair?

this is what he showing me

he talks of his father being iterigated and queetioned being held against his will

14:21

Sam :

covering peoples eyes with hands?

14:22

Simonejohnson Awardwinning SpiritguideArtist

he says "did you know that on one side of your family they are famous in history for a soup?

i feel its a famous soup now

i have to leave it here huni ok

send him your love in your toughts now

he will ere u

14:23

Sam :

ok hun, trying to think now.....x

14:23

Simone

please save this reading ok

its so important

14:23

Sam :

any names for the younger male?

14:23

Simone

u need to ask family about the spirit messages

they will be able to confirm it for you

yur too young to know some of that info

everything i told you from your cards will happen in the order i gave it ok

14:24

Sam :

any names for the younger male?

*********************************************************************************

That was where my reading ended but I have made sure to save it and I will keep checking back on it to see what happens with it. 

Also as far as the genetics question goes

My dad

 Me

My mum

My sister

(judge for yourself) 

Spoke to a psychic today............

Now Im not one to usually participate in things like this, this is more Abbys doing.

But this morning I had a Facebook message about a reading she had booked for me so I thought I would humour it , if not keeping totally sceptical. I should also add she is not in my FB friends list and all my FB is kept completely private as I have my children's pictures on there etc.

This woman has never met me, never seen me, knows nothing of me or my life/health/family etc.

Yet she described me perfectly to a T. She told me of health issues within my family, about specific family members, names of family member's who had passed over, past events in my own life that no one, not even Owen knows about......

She then went on to tell me about past life's  and she could pick up on at least four.......FOUR! which she then went on to describe in great detail.

So it has now gotten me wondering and I tell you what the last month or so since my brother passed I have been having several stress related issues and problems but after having a reading from her I had this amazing sense of relief and almost like comfort.....which was the nicest feeling.

She also went on to read my cards and said in a future vision she saw me and my partner with our children on a farm.......now thats my dream.........so I am now more determined than ever to achieve it.

A sad time...........

Hello All

Many readers will know from my past blog enteries the issues I have with my family. My life has always been very unstable and I was practically taken in and raised by family friends since the age of 4. I did live with my parents but with a dad in the RAF who was never home and a mother who had no maternal instinct whatsoever. When they divorced 11 years later it was a god send and I found my independence. The family friends who took us in years ago have followed us around RAF bases and raised us.

Their names are Chris and Barney and their 3 sons became like mine and my sister Abbys adoptive brothers - their sons are Dean, Stuart and Mark and I absolutely adored them.

In total I have 6 siblings, 4 brothers and 2 sisters.
Mark - 38 ----- dear friend who I look at as an adoptive brother
Stuart - 33 ----- dear friend
Dean - 29 ----- best friend and adoptive brother
Then there is me
Abby - 26 ----- actual sister
Jessica - 21 ----- step sister
James - 18 ----- step brother

Well on April 1st I had a frantic phone call from my sister to tell me that my brother Dean had gone to pick up our brother Mark to take him shopping, he had walked in and found him dead on his sofa. He was 38 years old. Dean phoned his parents and 999 and had to wait for them to arrive.

He was pronounced dead and from what they could tell he had been gone a few days.......so we have been picking up the pieces ever since. Dean and his family were in a bad way when I saw them the following day, understandably so and it really has rocked us all to the core.

The coroners report came back as 'unexplained death', they have no idea why he passed away or what took his life. Dean said he found him it was a if he had just laid down to have a cat nap because it looked as though he had been moving his living room around.

He was 38. An amazing man who pledged his life to the RAF. He has served 8 times in Afghanistan at Camp Bastian and some of the sights he had to see and witness Im sure must of haunted him to this day. His dad always says if you were to cut him in half he would have bled Blue. He loved his job, his family and his life and we are devastated to have lost him.

He is being laid to rest on May 3rd so at the minute we are all sort of in limbo. His family are having him cremated and then once they receive the ashes back they are going to have a private moment and scatter his ashes in the memorial garden......

He was always the one when my parents divorced who was waiting with open arms whenever they had argued and I need a cuddle to get away from it all. He was my sanctuary and my strength. His kind words, love and wisdom are what got me through some of the worst years of my life.

He will always be my hero and He will be sadly missed

Love you Mark

x x x x

So Norovirus.........we meet again..........

.....and yet again its taken my little princess

Exactly the same symptoms............exactly the same way

She was first poorly Sunday night whilst I was in work......

Then when I got home at 10pm she was sleeping soundly.
At 11pm when I went to bed I could hear her coughing, 2 minutes later she was sick
Brought her into our bed, 10 minutes of sound sleep, followed by coughing, then her crying, so we quickly moved her and sure as the sun rises, she was sick again.

Sunday night/Monday morning saw a blur of sickness, coughing, crying and me and her spending the night on the sofa.
At 5.30am when the dog did his usual howling trick I could have quite happily drop kicked him into the garden and left him there........but I'm not that mean.

Yesterday was full of mummy cuddles so I did nothing productive at all but I have found out that Mabel is very mummsie in her way. Everywhere Holly went yesterday, Mabel went. Holly slept, Mabel slept, Holly ate, Mabel ate........and so forth. Her and Holly are very close since the day we brought Mabel home, she would sit wrapping her up in blankets, just sit next to her bed and stroke her and she would sit hand feeding her dry biscuits (which we tried our best to deter her from doing) but it has obviously not gone unnoticed by Mabel.

Here is a few photos of Holly and Nurse Mabel yesterday

As I type this Holly is sat on my lap wrapped in her favourite blankie (the pink one in above photos), she's been up maybe 45 minutes with a very unwelcome dirty nappy, had a few mouthfuls of cereal and is now subdued possibly about to fall asleep again, Mabel is curled up right next to me......under Holly's feet. She's still a bit warm but her temperature is no where near what it was yesterday.

Ben bless him has been good as gold.......so I think a packet or two of his favourite stickers may be in order when Im next in work. He also brought me a gorgeous daffodil plant that he planted himself in school with the Marie Curie Pots of Care programme.....so it is now sitting happily on the front room windowsill

Which reminds me, two things happened in work Sunday, the first was I had these two videos sent to me from Owen

Id call that progress with the dogs. I should add that Mabel we think is starting to stop bleeding but we are aware that she still is fertile afterwards which is why they are still separated by the gate in the first video.

Bruno and Mabel progress...... :-)

We both do not want to add to the doggy population either which is why the dogs have supervised contact when the kids aren't around (mainly when Ben is around but Holly's is in bed because she is a little whirlwind and tends to want to play and winds them both up) or are separated at the minute. Plus for those who don't know Mabel's story please check my February blogs, she was meant to go in for neutering last week but because she came into season and we are unsure of her medical history and exact age we were advised to leave her have this one as it may have been her first, either way she is being neutered ASAP as the vets will not touch Bruno because he is 12 years old and has seizures.

Second bit of Sunday good news is there is a supervisors position going in work, my workmate Chris (who is already a supervisor) has hinted that two people are being taken on to cover it and whilst a workmate Luke is hoping for one, the other is two shifts I already do.....and I worked with our main boss on Sunday as there was no available cover and according to Chris who saw him yesterday he was singing my praises. I am considering applying for it but realise I am not as trained up as some others in the shop but I know how to lock the shop up (besides banking the notes) and the code to alarm the door. Other than that I know how to do everything else. My hours would go from 12 to 17 so I would qualify then for working tax credit and my hourly wage would go from £6.20 to £7.80. so all round it would help us out immensely.........it would also help with my future CVs if I have training etc I'm just not sure I want to be supervisor in the shop because the amount of grief we get occassionally is unreal and we are due to have extended hours soon too.

Things to think about I guess..........

Today mainly will consist of baby cuddles, Ive just enjoyed a bacon sandwich for breakfast and Im hoping if she does go for a proper nap later on that I can get out and clean the rabbits out as with the torrential rain last week and the cold weather and baby being ill they are in desperate need of cleaning out.

I also got rid of a fair few bits yesterday with the council. The spare hutch has now gone so I have space on top of it that Im hoping will be a good place to put my cloche and seedlings - its in the sun trap and sheltered all round and no bunnies can eat it.

Right best be off, mummy cuddles and Mr Tumble are calling

x

Time to finish.....(all these things).....Ive started

I'm a hypocrite

I am usually the one nagging Owen because he takes things apart and never rebuilds them, or makes all these plans and never follows them, or starts things but never finishes them......

until yesterday when I realised I am no better.

I was tidying round, 'potching' as we call it - putting little things away that had clearly been left waiting for me to do such a chore.....and kept coming across little things that I kept thinking to myself ' I must do that.......I must watch that.......I must finish reading that'.

So in the end I made a list of the things I haven't finished and shamefully it looks something like this

Things to finish reading
Valentinos Rossi's book
Janni Kowalskis book
The Kite Runner - won it but havent actually started reading it
Long Way Down - again I have it but havent started reading it

Cross Stitches
Shamefully I have had a tiger cub one since I was 12 and its still not finished and even worse is it needs literally about 30 stitches in the same colour and outlining to be complete.
A daffodil tablecloth I brought to give to my nan for her birthday (that was yesterday) and its got maybe one flower sewn on it.

Films To See
I have had Michael Jacksons film I borrowed off a friend before Xmas and never watched
SeaBiscuit - I've never managed to see the whole film
Willow - brought the DVD and haven't watched it (was a favourite as a child though)

Decorating
need to make a plan of attack
need to decide colours
list of things to get for each room (wardrobes etc)

Gardening
Plan for the garden
Clean/Clear the garden of junk
Start seeds
seperate spider plant seedlings for friends

Plans to start on
Kennels for dogs in May/July. We are going to see my dad for the night in May and away to my grandparents for two nights in July so need to book them in kennels because no family members can watch them.

and would you believe the bottom of that list said 'find a hobby'........think I have plenty to keep me occupied for a while though!

Besides that nothing much else is going on in the 'Seilam' (that's welsh for madhouse). Mabel seems to be coming out of season and made me and Owen jump yesterday because we brought Bruno in and he was sat on the sofa with me, and suddenly she shot off the sofa with Owen over to where we were. Owen did say as well that Bruno was later sat with him and she came over to get on the sofa with them of her own accord so I think she is getting there slowly. We have also discovered that neither dog likes the spray bottle technique and just having it in the room is enough to deter any naughty behaviour or growling on Miss Mabel's part so we are using that method at the minute rather than telling them off or scolding them etc

Oh yeah and Owen has sprained his ankle messing about in work jumping off palets.

Also Bruno has taken to howling at 5.30am.....not sure if its because he wants out, because he's a bit jealous or if there is something wrong but once we have been down and seen him he is OK hence him being back in the living room when we are all here. Just have to be careful with the kids in the living room and the two dogs so I tend to wait until Holly goes for a nap at 11 and then he comes in because Ben will listen and sit nicely with one dog but Holly runs between the two and winds them both up.

Also confirmed Mabel is very much a mummy's girl.

Right, best be off, breakfast to make and then I think I'm going to make a start on seed sowing. Also think I will take a book to work with me to read on my dinner break, now just need to decide which one.

Have a good sunday all

Sammy
x

Local Shop Offers (March 20th - April 9th)

Anyway, Ive decided to do a new piece on my blog, since I work in a little supermarket that has bigger branches all over the UK and what not - I figure that not many people know deals and if you don't tend to go shopping very often to save money then you wont know so I thought Id post the deals our little shop has on because it will be the same in most shops and on a Thursday I can update with out weekend specials - its usually two products that are reduced but the offer only lasts the weekend.

Anyway the offers this week (from March 20th - April 9th) are

* Large Unfatted Beef - WAS £10.59 per kilo, DOWN TO £5.29 per kilo
* British Boneless Pork Leg - WAS £7.19 per kilo, DOWN TO £3.59 per kilo
* Coop British Hams (theres a selection) - Any 2 for £4
*Coop chicken drumsticks/thighs - WAS £5 a pack, DOWN TO £2.50
*Coop smoked Salmon - WAS £6.50, DOWN TO £3.50
* 4 salmon fillets - WAS £8, DOWN TO £4

* King Edward 1.5kg bag - £1.50
* Coop Parsnips / Carrots - 50% Free
* Leaf Salad - £1.60 - BOGOF

* Utterly butterly - WAS £1.95, DOWN TO £1
* 8 Warburton Rolls - £1
* Garlic Baguette Triple Pack - £1
* Pilgrims Choice Cheese - £4.49 - BOGOF
* Coop Gala Apples Bag - Save 50p - £1.75
* Coop Mandarins - £1.50

Now I should just add that from experience the store tends to overstock on these things which can mean a lot of them get reduced down to ridiculously cheap prices. Personally our store doesn't get a lot of the big meat joints in the reduction bin at night time but chicken and salmon don't tend to sell well here but with the 75% we are recommended to reduce them by you could take home 4 salmon fillets for £1 potentially or the chicken drumsticks for 65p. Veg always tends to get left along with bread as well in our shop.

I will update and let you know the weekend offers as well soon.

Hope thats helped someone

Reality check today.......

Today has been somewhat eventful.

This time two years ago......
* Owen got his eye appointment times reduced down to every 6 months after having gone blind in one eye nearly 5 years ago now.
* My sister was about to under go surgery for Cervical Cancer.
* I had just gotten clear results from a suspicious smear test (sorry boys if too much information)
* My nan discovered she had Non Hodgkins Lymphoma
* I was depressed being stuck in a little damp rotten flat because the Health Visitor kept bullying us.

 Fast forward 2 years.....
* Owen doesnt have to see the eye surgeon anymore but just has to go back if something is bugging him
* My sister had her all clear
* My nan is in remission and just had her first all clear blood test
*We moved house
* No more health visitor

I cannot begin to tell you how much it feels like we've come on just counting the small victories.......

Speaking of victories too

I have been through my seeds today ready to start planting tomorrow.

So far I have

* 2 cress hedgehogs for the kids to grow one each

* 3000 cress seeds (curled)

* 400 Peas seeds (early onward)

* 460 Radish seeds (sparkler 3)

* 5 cucumber seeds (telepathy f1)

* 40 tomato seeds (cherry)

* 10 tomato seeds (tumbling tom red)

* 3200 carrot seeds ( autumn king 2)

* 1000 lettuce seeds (salad bowl mixed)

* 250 spring onion seeds (wilko brand)

* 450 spring onion seeds (white Lisbon)

* 5 seed potatoes (Charlotte)

* Wilko pepper pot (sweet California wonder)

 I don't have an outside space to start them growing so I will be setting up the cloche tomorrow, and I have cleared the dining table (we don't use it) to start the seeds off on as most of them can either go outside straight away or they need to be started and replanted outside so I will put most of them in the cloche and then will get the raised bed ready for when it is time to plant on but other things need to be a bit more sheltered inside like the tomatoes for a while so they can stay on the dining table or on the windowsill. 

I have also brought today some very sweet Easter cupcake cases - some larger ones and then a very sweet set of 150 mini cupcake cases. My daughter has a very sweet tooth (like her mother) so I think I will try and make her some mini cupcakes so she still has some but she wont need to have a full sized cake. I did discover little rolls in Tesco the other day that are the right size for her - I was previously giving her a whole roll and found she ate half and I was binning half or feeding it to the dogs but these small rolls there is no waste and they cost the same as the ones we usually buy - just I get 12 in a packet now instead of 6. 

I will make sure to post pictures tomorrow of our planting session. Until then I hope you are all enjoying the weather and I will speak to you tomorrow. 

Sam

x

Would you Adam and Eve it?..........

Evening all.

Well I have finally recovered from the Rugby on the weekend......

Never been so proud fair play and loved every second of the game. I cannot begin to tell you the amount of unity it brings to even the smallest villages. Our village and town were no exception, every pub was packed, every restaurant had the match on, every cabbie had the sports network on reporting on the game.......Rugby in Wales is most definitely like a religion, even little old ladies on the bus with me were discussing the team. Amazing just amazing.

Weirdly I have been sat looking at mostly gardening stuff today and if you have read my blog before you may remember I was wondering about using a building suppliers bag as a grow bag......well actually my friend Mandy answered that for me.......

This is a photo of her poly tunnel on her allotment and she has said that they make good grow bags but I need to keep an eye that they don't dry out - I don't think I will have a problem with that in South Wales though somehow - hardly known for our tropical weather are we?

I do believe she has planted some mini shallots in hers here but I am thinking they would be good for planting thnks like carrots and leeks in that need the depth. I think also I will fold mine down like she has done otherwise they might be ridiculously deep and just a bit of a waste of compost

Between these and my potato bags I think I will have plenty of growing space - I think Owen has 3 possibly 4 spare in the front garden that I can use so now i just need to get a load of compost to fill them up. Have also taken delivery of my own compost bin but realise it will not be ready for this growing season.

Which leads me to ask - what worms are best? and can anyone recommend a good buyer please.

Now for the rest of tonight I am going to be looking up prices on the best compost rates.......plan my garden - decide where to put these bags although I think I will make them into a barrier down the bottom of the garden - from our littel conifer tree across the garden so it hides all of Owen's junk in the bottom of the garden but still leaves me a nice space to enjoy the grass with the kids in the summer.

Sounds like a plan.

Right off to plan my growing.

Sorry its only short today but I will be having a busy day tomorrow so will catch you all up then - and my boy has a headache and wants a cuddle :-( poor little squish - sure he will cheer up when the tooth fairy visits him tonight though.

x

Money trees anyone?

I wonder if there is likely to be a money tree invented/bred or created soon because I may be in need of one soon if all our bills keep going up?

Its not even normal bills - the gas and electric is fairly low - it could be lower but we are minimising it every year so its getting there - in a new house but the building itself is fairly old so we are still in the process of doing it up despite us being here two years - for example - only half the stairs are carpeted and we have no curtains in our bedroom yet (we have net curtains but no thick curtains), even that said the heating is rarely on and we don't have a bath only a shower so the gas usage is very low.

Had a letter from the council tax section today and our monthly payments are going up - from £107 up to  £112. OK so that's only £5 a month but that's still £55 a year extra payments (we get 1 council tax free month being in a council property) but our rent is going up to £89 a week from £86  (Owen pays this) but we were paying £420 a month as we were behind with rent so it will go down to somewhere around £360 and instead of paying water to the council we are now paying it to Welsh Water and I haven't yet had their monthly amount through although apparently I should know by the 22nd March according to their site.

Anyway one thing I can keep an eye on is the food budget. I went shopping late night in Tesco the other night and had 2 green peppers that should have been 80p each, or 2 for £1......instead the two I had were in the reduced stand for 25p......... I've since come home. de-seeded and chopped them up and put them in a tub in the fridge for Owen to use in his sandwiches. I've also done the same with a few less than perfect looking red onions which were 3 small for 25p in the fridge as well......needless to say they will be used now.

I did also get a packet of 6 chicken drumsticks that were reduced down to 50p which I put in the fridge and intended to use for last nights dinner, I came home from town yesterday though to find that the dog had been in the fridge and snaffled two of them and in the process tore the packet completely open and had taken two more to his bed - so chicken was off the menu last night and I have now been monitoring the dog constantly. At 12 years old.....he's hardly a spring chicken - pardon the pun - so need to make sure he's OK but I have read plenty about the RAW and BARF diet and apparently it is better that they were raw and not cooked.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting into the garden and planting though but we woke up with a ground covered in frost and still minus temperatures so I think I will have to wait a week longer. I have made a start to clear the garden a little bit though and will be getting rid of some rubbish and clutter from upstairs in the form of an exercise bike, an old cot bad, and junk from the gardens - front and back. Its due to be collected on the 25th so I need to put it all out on the Sunday before hand.

I have just realised too that Owen has some builders merchants sacks - like the big ones that gravel/sand come in (see picture)

I'm wondering if I found a way to support them if I could use those to line a raised bed with instead of lining if I can make a few drainage holes in the bottom.....?

Anyway, tomorrow after school the kids will be planting up their hedgehogs and I will be spending the day putting together the cloche that will go outside for the veggies to get started in. I do have a window in the kitchen that I can start some seedlings off with - it gets plenty fo sunshine so should be a good growing starter point. Also the dining table is pretty clear so I should be able to get a fair bit going on there too if I can clear it and put a cover over it for the soil.

Im hoping I can use an old shed we have dismantled in the garden too to make a raised bed with - I quite fancy a deep bed so I can grow some carrots in it as well. I do have several of these potato growing bags in the garden as well that I could really do with emptying - I lost interest last year and the drop was growing well so I was gutted to lose them all but I think I will try with them again this year. That way between peas, carrots, potatoes, cucumber, lettuce, tomatoes, cress and spring onions we have most of our veg covered. I havent been outside to check on my blueberry bush though so I will have to see how that is fairing.

I think I also need to wait until the wet weather comes back and get outside and find a few worms to put in the compost bin - it has had a bit of a refill lately with me cleaning out the rabbits so I think a few more worms might be needed to hurry it along.

Apart from that I am in work tonight so I will have an easy night, not quite sure what else I will get done today - I may research raised beds :-)

Hope your all havign a productive day and Im looking forward to the weekend for the Wales Vs England match - Cymru Am Byth!

Love
Sammy
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